I love my work so much. I love working through the problems that people face with their homes, with time management and the journey from chaos to order. I even love the physicality. Moving and lifting, and creating change. The time with clients is really special, and I can't imagine being in any other field. It is such a Blessing.
Today I realized that there will come a time when I can't do the work. The mental and psychological work is no problem at all, but today, for the second time, I actually felt like I might not be able to finish an appointment. My body just wore out. My back hurt so bad. I could hardly stand and walk.
It was so weird, because I rarely feel like that. I have never felt like I couldn't keep going, and usually the physcal work is a joy.
I don't know what it all means. I probably just need to do some strength training and build up my muscles for now. The problem is that there are some very odd lifting situations, and the jobs are always different. There is never a way to know what you are going to be dealing with. It's so strange to get so tired that I don't feel like I can keep going. That is not like me at all.
I guess I just need to recognize that I am going to run into limitations as I get older. Especially with my back. It hasn't been that good for a long time and I need to give it a rest and some attention. I am going to need it for a few years longer.
So, I am going to take a break from the heavy work, get some xrays, get some physical therapy and start doing more work on my shoulders and back.
I hope that I can get things back into shape so that I can keep going.
I am really looking forward to a few years of work before I hang it up, but if God has other ideas, I'm listening. I'll pray and see what happens.
That's how life rolls....