Sunday, July 24, 2011

Lord, I Love Your Commands...

The Psalm at Mass today really struck me in a special way.
I was sitting in the pew listening to my friend Paula sing the psalm, and I was holding Lilly on my lap. 

I had been praying before Mass and just thanking God for my family and the fact that we were all there together safe and sound, since Tim was away this past week. 
Then I started thinking about things that get in the way of a right relationship with Christ. He is the ultimate Truth and authority. So much can get in between us and Christ in the world we live in today.
I have been reading "The 100 Thing Challenge" which is about a family's journey from commercialism to detachment from material things. It had me thinking about priorities even before Mass.

R. (97a) Lord, I love your commands.
I have said, O LORD, that my part
is to keep your words.
The law of your mouth is to me more precious
than thousands of gold and silver pieces.

So anyway, I was sitting with Lil and I heard that first verse of the psalm and I thought about how she would probably not be here without the love of God's commands. She is so much more precious than silver or gold, this little bundle of love and sweetness. She is a second generation survivor of the culture of death. 

 R. Lord, I love your commands.
Let your kindness comfort me
according to your promise to your servants.
Let your compassion come to me that I may live,
for your law is my delight.

Now, I realize that not paying attention to one of God's laws put me in the position of having to decide whether to obey another one. That is a lesson learned. It was a very hard lesson. Mea Culpa. However...given the circumstances....

Had I not known the Lord's commands, I could have been swayed by the siren song of worldly success, and decided to pursue my own goals, to have what the world told me was important, and destroyed a precious gift that God wanted to give to the world. Because I knew that the precepts of the Lord are given to us out of Love, and following them is the only way to go forward, it was a comfort and it gave me courage. If I had chosen another path, Laura, Nina, Lucy, Lilly, Molly and Claire would not be here. No matter how much Jim argued against it at the time, if I had even told him, no matter what kind of promises he made, I could have ended the possibility of six beautiful, creative, loving, wonderful people. I was in MY hands, as a woman.  Jim would have suffered as well. So that's another person hurt, and countless others missing someone that they would have loved. My mom and dad, the other grandparents, Buzz, Alice, my Grandpa and Grandma. Laura and Nina were a joy to grandma Alice in her final years. All the aunts and uncles, Andrew and his family. These are all people that love my girls, and their girls. 

 R. Lord, I love your commands.
For I love your command
more than gold, however fine.
For in all your precepts I go forward;
every false way I hate.

Thank you Lord, for your laws and your Love. Without them I would have had to navigate a very difficult time with the world to guide me. The world can be a dark and scary place. Our priorities can become skewed so easily. You not only give us your commands, you show us the way to the pearl of great price. You cast your light out so that we can see it. We are simple, and easily confused, even more reason to cling to your law. 

R. Lord, I love your commands.
Wonderful are your decrees;
therefore I observe them.
The revelation of your words sheds light,
giving understanding to the simple.

I love your commands. They have saved me, and mine, from myself.


Suzanne said...

This is a beautiful post. Goes right to my heart.

Mary De Voe said...

What magnificent children and what a wonderful family. May God bless. with prayers for your joy

Anonymous said...

Aw mom you made me cry!! Love you mom!!!